laugh with me.

I saw foxes today. Little foxes. 5 of them. They were very cute. I want one as a pet. Or maybe I could just get a dog. I would like that. A labrador retriever or something like that. I think that I'm going to go to the animal rescue. 

I was just talking to Phil. He's good people. Anyway, I was able to put into words what I've been kinda feeling, and it is that I want to share my excitement about this part of life - where I am, what I'm doing, what I'm learning - with people I love and who are close to me. But I don't really know many people at all here, and other people who aren't here have a hard time understanding. It's almost like Christianity. When you've lived the joy of life in Christ, it's incredible and you want to tell others about it. But so often, even if you tell people (even those who are Christians), they kinda look at you unenthusiastic and seem like they could really care less. And it's that way with people that I try and tell about this place... and it almost seems worse if they've seen pictures or heard about it. It's like a "yeah, yeah, ok. neat. i've seen the pictures, i'm unimpressed, i don't really care." ugg. I want to share my enthusiasm. And what I said about 'no one should have to set up a house alone' maybe goes along the lines of, no one should have to have joy alone. Joy is made to be shared. After getting all unpacked and settled in, I want to open up a bottle of wine and sit on the couch and look around and smile... but I don't really want to drink alone. 

 ...hmm, maybe its rather that I haven't done my job here of inviting people to have joy with me. I think on Monday I am going to get some more wine and beer and invite random people to come help me celebrate. This is a new chapter in life, and it calls for some celebration. Things are exciting! Laugh with me! or something like that. 

night.